Yes! I am back...

Busy, Happy, Unhappy life still goes on

These few days really busy, busy with the exhibition which we will held in our Uni. Quite tense as my thesis need to pass up soon to my supervisor.Everything seems so blur.Hope everything will settle down as soon as possible.Really hope so... About the exhibition, one thing make me most unhappy is I need to cope with one of the group member in our exhibition team. Although he joined this association not very long but he gave me the feeling like he is very expert and have all the experiences which made me felt annoyed. How come he can be so confident and yet always tried to scold and giv command to others. Why he cannot be more polite and be more down to earth as we are a team. Really no energy when need to work with him. I am wandering may be this is the test for me along the journey to purify my mind. Very tense and sad... Anyway just do it as the main objective is more important. Cheer up Ekeshibee :)

Camp ended, peak hrs gone, back to normal life. This camp had changed us a lot, we gained, we grew, we got closer and we changed... I still remember, not long after I started my semester, my dearest fren told me that I'll incharge in the camp on October which was 3 months ago(I guess). That time I decided to reject but keep it on because this time, my role will be accompanying the juniors. The role of accompanying juniors are an important task in Tzu Chi. However, till today, the maturity not only happened on my juniors but we,seniors too... Felt gratitude to my dearest friend who have given me the opportunity for this superior task. Gratitude to my dearest juniors, gratitude to everyone arounds me, who gave me the support and encouragement. Else I couldn't think of other way to solve all the problems I faced. Have you eva found a place where you can laugh, smile, cry, and speak out your inner words spontaneously without worries? I felt gratitude to be one of the Tzu Ching (Tzu Chi student in Uni). Here is the place i've learnt to grow, to know, to see the tough world of human beings. I used to be an ungrateful person. Always complained this and that untill I've seen my close friends' difficulties. Not just one person but most of them. Imagine, close friends around us who had a tragedy cases. Never ever tot of dat before. One sentence to sum up my thoughts, Life Is Impermanent.

I am getting too emotional over many things.

I feel so much relieved after reading Dr. Sharma's article. This article brought a lot of positive views and it gave great encouragement to my next step. I shall be glad to have someone whom had made me searched for such good essence to balance my emotional crisis. Life is always in dilemma. In fact, you are trying to be good but everything just turning the other way round. Once, my friend had told me this, what is one’s meat is another poison. This is how he consoled me, I got to be positive. Another friend of mine has told me a story with the title "Good or Bad is Hard to Say". This story is about a king who always asked his wise follower whether the matters were good or bad, and the follower always replied to his king, “Good or bad is hard to say.” When people don’t appreciate you, don’t feel sad or despair. Always learn from them to be a more appreciative person. This is the philosophy that I’m learning now.

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Angry, frustrated... y they like to put "!" symbol while chatting or sms? Is it to show they were angry, frustrated or irritated?

Hectic and fullest months i've gone thru....

Wow, it's been a long time since my last updated blog. Back to Uni for a month, which means i'd not going back hometown for a month... Time really flies... Miss home so much, my dad, mom, sis, bro, nieces and nephew, my house, my bed and not forget my toilet. Aiyo... However my life in kl is really enjoy... ke ke ke... I'd moved out from college to rent a room in PJ (seksyen17) to change my life style for the final year. I love my new house. My housemates, roomates, coursemates and all the juniors who are involving in the tzu ching activities. Aha, 3rd year, should be final year in Uni is the most stressful year for all the Science Com and IT students, especially me. Actually it is also my most precious year coz study life will be end soon! I'm goint to do an Intelligent System for my thesis... Wow, what a good chance! It is speciallised for us(me and my fren) to do this kind of system... Reads like really great, instead our lecturer had helped us by modifying some rules for the system. Being a confident is good Other than the assignments which already assigned to us and the huge project which i am doing research now, all these are under control. Now, the most exciting programmes are tzu ching activities. Avthing seems different compared last year. Being a senior is different. Av1 worked well 2gether. We seems like a family and helped each and av1. I felt great! :) What kind of major activites in this semester: a) Freshie Day b) Prepare a Tzu Chi Youth camp for Uni students c) Caring Old Folks in Sg. Buloh d) Recycling and e) Sharing Really worry whether i can cope with my studies or not... Will do the best Nothing is impossible! As I had mentioned, study life will be end soon, anyhow is actually will be going to start soon. Life learning is always need to maintain. Learn to live at the fullest life. Life is only once, to be at the fullest or at the most wasting life, all depends on you. I'd chosed to spread my valuable life's love to any1 who needs it. Enjoy this website, it's all about tzu chi in the world! http://www.tzuchi.org/global/ Let the love spread out!

Lesson I've Learnt While Driving

This morning, again i took the risk to drive from segamat to malacca. No way to escape. As ussual my dearest ma ma adviced me to drive slowly... Hm... as a loyal daughter i always obey her : ). This time, the road was less of dead creatures. Unfortunately, there were more cars and lorries. Lorries always slow in the road. What to do, just be patient. I've learnt a lesson whereby when a vehicle in front of us wanna make a turn, we need to on our signal, opposite to the way they wanted to turn. It is an alert to the vehicles behind us. When entered to the highway, i could see the sky turned black. Without further, suddenly it rained heavily. Oh dear, it rained so heavy till i couldn't see the vehicles in front of me. The view of my unforgetable incidence reminded me to be slow. Wow, after 20 minutes i ended my highway journey. Later, I was trapped in the traffic, time really flies, i was late for 45 mins to the office. Paiseh but at least I reached in the safe condition. Ma, don worry, I am fine : )

Quality Men

Here he comes, asking me, Can you help me? I was stunned by his soft and gentle smiles. He looked polite though he is not as good looking as what I always imagined. His charmed goes deeper than his looks and inspired me the kind of spontaneous exchanges with strangers.

Men are weird, they are too ego when they need to be direct and go up to anyone whom they wanted to know.

However i could say that not every guy is like this. The guy that i mentioned are really the quality men.

Suddenly i felt so down with myself...

"What is beauty?" I discussed with one of my charming gal fren. "Certainly external beauty", we both agreed. However, it is more that that. We argued and lastly we both came to a conclusion, beauty is your whole attitude towards life.

"Am I attracting beauty? Or am I denying myself beauty?"

Either you choose fear or beauty/love.

"Am I gonna be afraid, and limit how much I allow? How much interaction?"

Someone that allows or attracts beauty becomes beautiful.

"I notice that!"

"I choose to see beauty in people"

When you’re looking for it, you find it. You become it!